idea of the day

"How the Hulk Stole Christmas". thanks, Dylan. Dr. Seuss will never be the same again.

thanks

i appreciate all the hugs and support people have offered since my post the other day. i'm feeling slightly better after yesterday's gaming session -- it was good to get out of the apartment and see live humans.

i've resolved to start cleaning the apartment today. i'm also going to stop buying wine for a while. two glasses a night isn't horribly excessive, but it's another thing that helps me tune out reality, and i feel like i've really gotten into a holding pattern where i'm avoiding what's bothering me instead of facing up to it. so it's time to apply some self-discipline, what little i have. it's not like i can really afford it, anyway.

soon i will get out of bed and put this plan into action. but first: quality time with the cats. they're feeling put out because i was gone all day yesterday. the horror! the horror!

i shudder to think how they'll react when i finally get full-time work again. they've had me at home with them almost all the time since last May. they're so spoiled!

progress

well, i went for a little drive to wake myself up and get lunch, and then came home, learned to play most of "Breaking Up Is Hard To Do", and cleaned the living room. so i'm feeling semi-virtuous. trying to decide what room to do next; i suppose i should do the kitchen, which will make room for me to actually cook dinner.