what's on my mind

for a couple of weeks now, i've been contemplating the bleakness of my future. i'm burned out from the job i just left and the other little tragedies of the past six months. i have no time to recover from that because i have to find another job right away. this is how my life goes: i work my ass off finding a job, i work my ass off trying to keep the job, i use all my PTO on sick days so i can never take a vacation, and then i get fired or laid off and work my ass off finding another job. i will never get a break. this will be my life: a constant struggle just to stay where i am, with no chance of ever getting ahead. i will keep taking the medication because it allows me to keep struggling. and i will be grateful that i have this much.

it's been 26 days since i last spent time with a friend. not a whine, i'm just sayin'. my life has never been emptier or more devoid of purpose.

so. that's what i've been thinking about. cheery, huh?